So the past couple of nights for me I havn't been able to sleep well. I have been waking up in the middle of the night just wide awake frustrated and sad. I find myself in the middle of the night just praying for people in my life that God has put on my heart. I lay in my bed thinking about the children out there that are being sold into slavery. If you don't know this, right now there about 27 million human slaves and most of those are kids. And when I say slaves I am not just talking about labor, I am talking about children being forced to do things that are so disgusting. Then to think about the poor. The families that are suffering. The families that are starving to death. The people out there who are dieing of a disease that is cureable with medicine that we can buy at the grocery store. Or how about this one. How about the millions and millions of people that are dieing everyday that don't have a relationship with Jesus Christ. So I am sitting here going, "Lord, what is it in this world that you would have me do???" I know my life wasn't created just to entertain a few people in the morning. Even as I write this letter to you I am hurting inside. Ya I know going down to Juarez is great and I am so honered and blessed to be apart of something amazing like that but there is so much more going on in the world and I am just struggling with what my part is. Ya know what it is? I am just so sick of talking and talking and talking and I just want to do! I just want to do something. I heard about this woman in thailand who would sneak into these places where they would keep these children that were sold into slavery. She would sneak into these homes were all these kids were in the middle of the night and grab as many as she could and just run! She would grab and carry as many as she could and run as fast as she could so that she could try and save these kids. Well they found out who she was and the word got back to her that they were going to find her and they were going to kill her and the children. So then she started running for her life with these kids getting them to safety. And Now she is in Northern Thialand with these kids she has rescued. A hundred and 25 kids that she rescued. 125 kids!! Man I am looking at that and I am going, "THAT IS WHAT I WANT TO DO!!!" "I WANT TO DO SOMETHING!!" I bet you that is a woman who is alive. I bet you that is a woman who is fullfilled. Try and imagine yourself waking up and looking out and seeing 125 kids that you rescued. Can you imagine how fullfilling your life would be? I mean how much more fullfilling would it be to see 125 kids in my living room then to see a giant living room with nothing in it. God designed us to LOVE. That is how He made us. It is so fullfilling to LOVE. Think about how unfullfilling it is to always think about my needs. What do I need? What can you do for me today? I mean really!!!! IT is so sad. I am like that most of the time. It really is so disgusting. God is trying to show us and trying to tell us that we will LOVE to LOVE. That we can have a fullfilled life by living out the fruit of the Spirit. To have Love, Joy, Peace, Pacience, Kindness, Goodness, Faith, Gentleness and self control. Can you imagine if all of those things just flowed out of you.
Please pray for me. I just want God to use me and my family. I want to do nothing but God's will for my life. I pray that you would look at your life and take a step back. Are you only worried about you? Are you sick to death of talking and talking and hearing other people talk about what we should do. Lets stop talking and let's start Doing!

In Jesus Name
Amen

Dex